I am burden with our actions as of late. We for some reason are stuck in a cycle that makes us ineffective and unable to comprehend the teachings of Christ. I am asking for the Lords forgiveness for grieving the Holy Spirit as I hope many of us are. But further asking for Lords help to be able to strive, hear, and understand His word. Our biggest issues are these, lack of push to understand and function, not having a back bone to take correction, and having emotions on our sleeve. for some rebellion and others religion (either way, demonic in nature). It may be too late but i do pray to our Lord who is merciful to help us and somehow change the tide that we are in so we can fully grab hold of the teachings of Christ given to us by our Apostle. I am writing this under community because we are striving to be a community of believers who can change our communities with the Light of our savior. Any time we say "we should be doing", or "this should happen", we need to figure out how we can be the answer, the solution. So that the should becomes "by Gods empowerment I am doing...." or "we are changing...". I am asking for the Lords forgiveness and mercy and empowerment to do what is required of me and to do what I couldn't do in my own strength. and that we will somehow (not sure if this is scriptural but it is well needed) develop a backbone is us not to give up or to succumb to our emotions and feelings. Revival is here and God needs leaders and people who will stand strong, by standing in obedience, standing in truth, standing upon the revelations and teachings of our apostle which is the foundation the church of Christ. May the Lord forgive us and have mercy on us.